Beam me up
Let me be lighter, I'm tired of being a fighter


Just shave it // Kenden

irishchainsmoker:

Aiden nods in agreement, smiling as Kennedy makes herself comfortable in bed. “I’ll put water on for tea as well.” He says before he walks off, going to make them breakfast, making sure to make the tea that Kennedy liked. It surprisingly helped with her nausea, which was something that was hitting her pretty hard this time around. He hated that he couldn’t do much to help her, but he tried his hardest whenever he could.

As Kennedy rushes off after she eats, Aiden frowns, waiting a few moments before he follows after her. He waits for her to finish throwing up before pulling he flushes the toilet, helping her sit on the closed lit. “Feel better?” He asks, offering her a small smile as he goes to get some mouthwash, offering the cap to her. “Rinse and then we’ll go back to bed and you’ll finish your tea.” He instructs, pressing a light kiss against the top of her head. “I’ll make you some toast or rice or something instead, alright?”

Kennedy nods as she takes the mouth wash from him. She knew he was trying his best and she appreciated every bit of it. She also knew he new what she was dealing with and a part of her relaxed a bit because of that fact. She nodded as she washed her mouth out, trying to get rid of the taste of bile in her mouth. She spit it out and stood up from the toilet seat, leaning onto Aiden as she walked to the bed. She knew that should could count on Aiden to be there when she needed him, knew that he would come running, or walking quickly, to her if she were to call out to him and Kennedy didn’t know how to say thank you for that.

"Some toast would be nice actually." She said smiling to him. She sat in bed and closed her eyes, trying to get her world to stop spinning. There was a knock at the door of the apartment and she listened to see if she could tell who it was by sound. She heard the door open, a few muffled voices before footsteps stopped at the door and a shocked gasp came from both of her parents seeing her bald. Her eyes went wide and she pulled the covers up over her head to try and hide it from her parents even though she knew they had already seen and probably put two and two together. "Hi mom..hi dad…" She said as she peeked out from underneath the covers.

(Source: kennedy-jones)

Just shave it // Kenden

irishchainsmoker:

Aiden shrugs at Kennedy’s suggestions, not really sure who they could ask. “There’s no harm in asking, I suppose.” He says with a shrug as he rinses off, stepping out of the shower with Kennedy once he’s all clean. He dries himself off quickly, wrapping the towel around his waist. When he hears Kennedy speak, he walks over to her, pressing a light kiss against her shoulder lightly. “Yes, love, you are.” He murmurs before he takes her hand, pulling her out of the bathroom with him. “Why don’t you make yourself comfortable in bed and I’ll make us breakfast?” He asks, smiling over at Kennedy as he sits her down on their bed.

Without waiting for a response, Aiden drops his towel, walking over to their dresser to grab a clean pair of boxers. He steps into a pair slowly, slipping a plain white v-neck over his head as well once he’s finished, turning to look at Kennedy again. “I’ll be right back. Make yourself comfortable, love.”

"The worst they could say is no right?" Kennedy said and blushed a bit as he confirmed what she had thought she said to herself. She dressed herself up in a clean pair of pajamas and smiled softly towards him. "Sure, I would really like that babe." She said as she got comfortable on the bed. She sat up, legs pulled up to her chest and let her head rest on her knees.

Once Aiden had brought the food in, she could smell the pancakes. She grinned, letting her knees down so she could eat easier. She thanked Aiden, kissing him before cutting into the pancakes. She started to eat until she was done. Moments passed before she started to feel nauseous. She quickly got up from the bed and ran to the bathroom, leaning herself over the toilet and heaving the contents of her stomach into the toilet.

(Source: kennedy-jones)

Just shave it // Kenden

irishchainsmoker:

Aiden smiles, kissing the back of Kennedy’s neck lightly before he speaks. “Whatever you want, love. The only person I need at our wedding is you, really. I wouldn’t have anyone to invite anyways.” He points out, a soft sigh escaping his lips as he presses his fingers into her skin more. “I believe that we would need a couple of witnesses though, although I’m not sure. Americans do things so strangely.” He chuckles at that, a smile playing on his lips as he turns so Kennedy can wash his back.

"I’m alright." He murmurs in response to Kennedy’s question, sighing softly as her fingers press into his skin. "I’m always tense, love. It’s just in my nature, I suppose." Once she finishes he turns again, facing her. "C’mere, love." He murmurs, motioning for her to come close for a kiss. "I love you."

Kennedy sighed a bit, rolling her eyes but relaxing into Aiden. “Yeah we need like two people. ” She said as she looked towards him. “I wonder if those two next door will do it. What’s their names…Maggie and Jackson? The ones we saw at chemo. Or maybe that social worker and her little playmate from down the hall.” She said, thinking out loud. She made sure his back was soaped up before smiling softly, kissing him back. “I love you too Aiden.”

She stood under the water with Aiden for a little while before shutting the water off and giving Aiden another kiss and grabbing them both a towel. Kennedy dried off and stepped out of the shower, moving towards the mirror. She stared at herself, a hand running over her newly bald head. She let out a sigh and offered herself a small smile. “You’re still beautiful.” She whispered to herself, wondering if Aiden had heard her.

(Source: kennedy-jones)

Just shave it // Kenden

irishchainsmoker:

Aiden smiles as he kisses Kennedy back, his arms wrapping around her waist and pulling her body into his more. He lets the kiss go on for a while longer before he needs to pull back for air, taking a breath as he leans his forehead against hers. “I love you.” He murmurs, smiling as he kisses the tip of her nose lightly. “So very much.”

Pausing, he takes a step back, reaching for their bar of soap. He motions for Kennedy to turn around, soaping up her back carefully and massaging away the knots in her back as his hands run along her skin. “So tell me, love, when do you want to get married?” He asks, pressing his fingers into her soapy skin. “What kind of wedding do you want?”

Kennedy smiled against Aiden’s lips. She hummed happily towards him. “I love you too Aiden. More then words can say.” She turned around and sighed happily as he started to massage out a lot of the knots that are in her back. She smiled softly. “Mmm magic hands you have there Aiden.” She grinned happily and then shrugged. “I’m not sure really. I mean I’ve had my big wedding already. I don’t think I really want to have another one. Maybe we can just have one of those go down to the courthouse thing?”

Kennedy shrugged some and grabbed the soap from Aiden telling him to turn around. She washed his back for him and set the soap down, massaging into his back feeling a large amount of knots in his back. “You’re tense babe. Are you alright?” She asks and smiled softly at him, kissing his shoulder gently.

(Source: kennedy-jones)

Just shave it // Kenden

irishchainsmoker:

"I would never keep you waiting, love." Aiden says with a smile as he starts to run the razor along his chin, shaving away any bits of scruff that was on his face. "You will always be beautiful to me, Kennedy…no matter what." Smiling weakly, Aiden nods, rubbing his now bare chin, "I mean that."

Clicking the razor off, the Irishman steps out of his boxers, kicking them off to the side. He climbs into the shower carefully, wrapping his arms around Kennedy’s waist, pulling her body close to his. “I mean it, Kennedy. I want to be with you no matter what happens. Nothing will keep us apart now,..not time or distance or cancer or anything of the sort. That I promise you.”

Kennedy smiled to herself, listening to Aiden talk to her about how he thought that she was beautiful. She  heard the razor turn off and then felt Auden wrapping his arms around her waist. She hummed happily and leaned back against him, body pressed into his. “I hope you can keep that promise Aiden.” She whispered and closed her eyes, letting out a deep breath as she turned around and pressed her face into the crook of his neck. She wrapped her arms around his neck before looking up and drawing him into a kiss. “I love you Aiden. So much.”

This isn’t how she had expected her life to go. If she was being honest, she was expecting that she would end up alone and dying that way, maybe with a few cats to keep her company. She had Aiden though and though she was sick again, she felt like she could beat the cancer and finally live her happily ever after that she thought she deserved. She let her hands move to his sides and rub up and down them as they kissed.

(Source: kennedy-jones)

Just shave it // Kenden

irishchainsmoker:

"Mm…thank you, love." Aiden murmurs as Kennedy takes the razor for him, making himself comfortable as he focuses on the familiar buzz of the razor. He becomes keenly aware of the cool air against his scalp as his hair starts to fall, letting his eyes slide shut as Kennedy continues to shave his head. When the razor clicks off, he opens his eyes, smiling as she comes around to kiss him. He kisses her back slowly, only pulling back when she does, standing as she takes his hand.

"You get started in the shower…I do believe that it’s best that I finish shaving. I look a bit silly right now, don’t you think?" He asks as he rubs his jaw, his fingers going over the scruff that lined his face. "It should only be a minute." Smiling, he turns to look at Kennedy, nodding as he takes her in. "Of course I do. You’re beautiful to me no matter what."

Kennedy smiled softly. “Yes, I suppose you do look a bit silly but I love you nonetheless.” She said, watching him and nodding. “Don’t keep me waiting okay?” She murmured and made sure the water was the right temperature. “Promise? Even when I get super skinny and am puking over the toilet because of the chemo? Still beautiful?” She asked, slipping out of her pajamas and into the shower, adjusting the water a bit as she let it run over her body, feeling the splash coming off of her now bald head.

Being aware of what was to come was slightly comforting to Kennedy. Now, she knew that people would stare when she stepped outside, that people will give her things or let her cut in line. It was cancer perks. People felt sorry for you and suddenly things got a lot easier to get or do and Kennedy hated it. She didn’t want to be treated differently now that she was sick and the lack of hair was what gave that away. She had tried wigs once but never really liked them, opting for scarves instead. She heard the razor turn off and she scooted away from the water to give Aiden enough room to get in.

(Source: kennedy-jones)

Just shave it // Kenden

irishchainsmoker:

Aiden had never been much of a heavy sleeper, and given recent events, he had barely been sleeping at all. When he did sleep, it was usually a restless sleep, one where he woke up every few hours to a darkened room and a still sleeping fiancee. So when Kennedy nudges him awake, he rolls over, mumbling something about getting up in a second. It was already starting to get light out and he knew he wouldn’t be able to go back to sleep after this, but Kennedy needed him, and his time in bed was over.

Rolling out of bed slowly, Aiden pulls his boxers back on, rubbing his eyes as he shuffles back to their bathroom. As he sees her there with the razor in her hands he nods, his heart sinking as he swallows. “Of course, love…sit. Let me do it.” He says softly, pressing a kiss to the top of her head before he flips it on. It takes a while, but finally her head is shaven, and when he’s done he kisses her head again, looking down at her. “My turn now. Have at me.”

Kennedy watches as her hair falls down around her and she sniffled, feeling the cool air against her skin before feeling Aiden kissing her now bald head. “What? No..I can’t let you do that Aiden…” She said as she stood and looked back over to him, sighing when she sees a look saying that he won’t take no for an answer before nodding and moving around him, switching places with him. She waited for him to sit down and get comfortable before slipping the razor on.

She’s careful not to cut him while she runs the razor over his head, watching as pieces of his hair come off and fall to the floor. She finishes up and sets the razor down, moving in front of him and kissing him deeply. “Thank you.” She said, watching him, hands resting on the sides of his face. She looked to the shower and took his hand. “Come on, I need a shower now…” She said as she started the water. She caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror and turned to Aiden. “You still think I’m beautiful right?”

(Source: kennedy-jones)

Just shave it // Kenden

Kennedy had been struggling with the fact that she had become sick again and he been going through chemo for a week now. Through the past week, she had been experiencing so many emotions that she hadn’t expected on feeling, including Aiden proposing. Of course she said yes. The two hadn’t really ever dated but they both knew they were in love with each other and Kennedy wasn’t going to let Aiden slip away from her again. She
couldn’t believe that she was going to be married again but this time she knew that Aiden wouldn’t leave her. She knew that he was going to stay.

When she woke up that morning however, she looked down on her pillow before covering her mouth with her hand. She felt the tears started to swell in her eyes. She had been expecting to start losing her hair from the chemo however she hadn’t expected it to happen quite so soon. She turned to Aiden and nudged him slightly, trying to get him to wake up and help her shave her head. It wasn’t the first time that he had seen her bald so she wasn’t afraid of his reaction. What she was more afraid of was her own.

"Aiden..I..I need your help." She said looking down at her pillow before standing up and moving to the bathroom, grabbing the razor that was in there and holding it up to her fiance. "I just want to get it over with now." She said, waiting for him to join her after she went to get a chair to sit on.

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irishchainsmoker:

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Hardly, but i am glad that you think so.

I will always think so.

(Source: kennedy-jones)

irishchainsmoker:

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Help yourself to anything in my dresser. And I do. I always keep a box around.

Will do. I will have to take some for chemo. They will definitely help me feel more comfortable. You are seriously the most amazing man I have ever met.

(Source: kennedy-jones)